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Wednesday, 10 January 2007
2 Great Poets
Mood:  suave
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Topic: Poetry

Another poetry book I found is a dull-looking schoolbook. Longman English Series Poetry 1900-1965. (A lot of these collections contain only British and sometimes "Commonwealth" writers but not American. Which irritates me. We all speak English and one of my favourite poets was American (Sylvia Plath)— I particularly like her Insomniac click I'm sorry about all the ads around it.

Another favourite (who I consider a great poet, not just a great war poet — Wilfred Owen. Two of his best are Dulce et Decorum Est (click and Futility (click As I said (somewhere) I'm going to start a poetry blog. Maybe I'll post on it all my faves as well as my own dubious & uneven works. Sometimes I've found stuff by myself and thought "wow — did I really write that?" It doesn't seem possible. Other times I just read stuff back and cringe. It's taken quite some willpower not to remove certain past postings (or bits of them).

But, talking of execrable verse, did no-one like my William McGonnagal? It's difficult to pick out single quotes that sum up the full grandeur of this man's prowess. But these lines out of Jottings of New York ( give a good idea of why people say of him "he's so bad, he's good":—

And Brooklyn Bridge is a very great height,
And fills the stranger's heart with wonder at first sight,
But with all its loftiness, I venture to say,
For beauty it cannot surpass the new Railway Bridge of the Silvery Tay.

(He loves his bridges on the "silvery" River Tay ( He also wrote some lines on The Tay Bridge Disaster, and a lovely work on the railway's replacement

And, believe me, the morning I sailed from New York
For Bonnie Dundee, my heart it felt as light as a cork.


Mr McGonnagal said his best time of year for public readings was Easter, as the crowds seemed to have less spare supplies of eggs to hand...

Posted by gledwood at 2:00 PM GMT
Updated: Wednesday, 10 January 2007 2:55 PM GMT

Saturday, 19 January 2008 - 6:44 AM GMT

Name: "E"

Great blog Gleds.  It is 0100 and I just downed my methadone that is meant for 0700 because otherwise I stay awake all night.  What kind of house do you live in?  I live in Indinapolis, IN USA; I grew up in New York City and coming here was the biggest mistake in my life.  Came here to be a doctor and now I am a junkie (junky is what we call old shit, kinda like rubbish.  I forgot what else you wanted to know what we called in the US.  Anyhow, I shall read your blog now.  It kept me quite entertained for the past few hours reading it backwards!   Do you know it costs nearly $100 to get a weeks worth of methadone!  Take care bud!  E-

Tuesday, 9 September 2008 - 3:39 AM BST

Name: "Harrison"
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Monday, 11 January 2010 - 7:05 PM GMT

Name: "Caroline"
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Sunday, 26 September 2010 - 6:34 AM BST

Name: "lindsay"

Heroin- smack junk, boy tar, junkie call it what you will its your savior your buddy your friend your nighhtmare your worst enemy its being shot right throught your heart your will to live first you live for it then you cant live without it then you cant live another day on it. Thatts what I want now more then I ever have to not live another  day why cant I have lived fast and die young why do I still have to take it from everybody and everything  wqhy cant I just close my eyes forever I have tried everything overdoses hanging myself crashing my car into a tree 3 times zooming down queens blvd knowing my car would end in a skifd when I stopped and hopefully id die but no not me im leaving the life I now know and going back to the life I had im giving up the apartment im going back the place I feel most comfortable the streets whether it’s the streets of NY or pennsylavania or even florida again I don’t want what I have now none of it I dopnt want a father who cares and and a mother who couldn’t care less a sister who thinkis im worthless cause here husband is of course telling her ther truth a brother who doesn’t know im alive and another who doesn’t ccare that I am escort agencies posting strange men in my bed id rather work the styreets and get a guy into a hotel room and do whjat they did to me only this time its me with the knife to there balls robbing them ive just so had it. I wonder and used to imagine what my life would have been if john never shot me up that day would I have ver tried it wold I have ruined my life would I have hjad a life. Ive gone around the country and back for it id kill for it is this really me or is the drug or has the drug turned me into someone that can never turn back around to who I should have been. I wonder……..when I was 21 I was on the streets can I make it at 33 the same way I know longer for the first timei n my life don’t have a partner in crime and as hard as I tried to get all those guys out of my life I cant help wanting them back at times.

I know longer even have a vein to it I know longer get that rush I just don’t get that awful feeling when im coming down if I have some junk And that’s a high it self. I don’t even know who I am anymore tonight I thought about everything from murdering people for money to ddriving to hunts point to work  the street.. my exes I used to say were the worst addicts I had ever met they would kill there mom for a bag of dope but im there sometimes I think I would too now I looked for a rope to try and hang myslf again but of course I couldn’t find one and the electric cord didn’t work last time instead as I hung there choking to death the chandelier I was hanging from landed on my head. The tricks the drugs the abortion the rapes the beatings the crimes ive committed when is enough enoughplease god (the dope god I mean) you have helped me before help me now get me out of the this life but don’t give me another just let me die let me die let me die. Don’t string me along anymore I cant take another day of opening my eyes wondering if ill be sick today or if ill be able to pull something offf to get some money. Why are you making me live like this. Let me go in peace. Peace that’s a concept I have never learned not since I was at least 13.its strange most of my days on junk were spent getting money for me and whoever was my bofriend at the time I would be out of the house gone for days didn’t ask for cnt from my family I made all the oney I had every con scheme there was I had a smile that would make people want to give me there money I had a way of robbing people that they didn’t even know they were being scamed and robbed that has all died in the last yr I got used to craigs list not leaving my house and letting the money come to me now that part of life is over with and I feel so stuck.

Heroin why did you take me from everything normal why why do I still love you more then anybody or anything why don’t I have the will power to go through the cramping the twitching the puking the tearing the crying the headaches the toothaches the back pain the chills the asweats  the shakes the no sleeping wouldnt other people be able to kick junk why cant I

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