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Thursday, 11 January 2007
Hamsters? Poems? Drugs?
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: I'm not playing at nothing. Leave me alone!!
Topic: Daily Doings

OKAY I've just flicked down this page. Full of hamsters and poems, hmm... I really need to put this stuff in another blog. This one's going crazy. Do you want to hear about drugs? I slept in till 2:30pm today. 2 dealers tried to phone me up "telesales"— do I want their wares? Well no. Because one's is weak and the other not too bad but it goes foamy in the spoon (yeah, right!) which is kind of offputting. So I'm going to the one I saw last night next time.

Place yer bets folks: how long will next time be?? When I have the dough and the guy's one street away?

Get outta here, Einstein — you're not required!


Posted by gledwood at 3:23 PM GMT

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 6:05 PM GMT

Name: "chipper"
Home Page: http://playingwithfire.blogdrive.com

It's all interesting, Gledwood.  So you get these calls too?  I get them quite often.  It's frustrating when, for one reason or another, you want to buy from them but can't.  I am disappointed in one source because it's weak.

It seems they're never there when you need them, only when you don't!

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 6:55 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

What gets me is the question: Do you want something?

Like there's ever a time when I don't!!

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 7:42 PM GMT

Name: "ruth"
Home Page: http://ruthjen.blogspot.com/

Great news re the poetry blog. Have been trying to get into it but no luck yet. I don't know if it's because I'm with blogger and you're on tripod but it always take me ages to get in and then another age for comment to post. I actually started trying to get in to the poetry one as soon as I saw your comment; ended up getting into this one quicker. Will keep trying though. Re Micks glasses..Mick started getting double vision when the brain tumor was first diagnosed. He could talk etc at first and found it easier to see if one eye was covered so we put black tape over one lens and he could then see ok. Athough he can't tell me now whether it still helps or not I've left it on just in case it does.

Well liitle spinning wheel still trying to get me in poets corner......hope to catch up with you there later.

Rx

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 10:00 PM GMT

Name: "IVY"
Home Page: http://nostoppingplace.blogspot.com

Hi.. Where are you? Wish we could both be high right now. 

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 10:26 PM GMT

Name: "witchy"
Home Page: http://istanbulwitchy.blogger.com

hi gledwood,

I didn't disappear darling, I've been reading your blog and enjoying it. My baby kitten(5 months old) broke his hip the other day and I've been dealing with that. He got operated on and is fine now. He'll be home in a week.

I love people who love animals. That's one of the reasons why I liked you to begin with.

Your dinner the other day sounded fantastic. I also like people who can cook fabulously even only for themselves.

love

witch

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 11:15 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

"IVY" wrote:

Hi.. Where are you? Wish we could both be high right now. 

 

Hi Ivy. At 10pm GMT I was on my other (new) blog (listed). Don't laugh too much if you go there.

As for what you said, I wish that too.

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 11:20 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

"witchy" wrote:

hi gledwood,

I didn't disappear darling, I've been reading your blog and enjoying it. My baby kitten(5 months old) broke his hip the other day and I've been dealing with that. He got operated on and is fine now. He'll be home in a week.

I love people who love animals. That's one of the reasons why I liked you to begin with.

Your dinner the other day sounded fantastic. I also like people who can cook fabulously even only for themselves.

love

witch

BROKE his HIP?? That's major. I hope he's okay...

Yeah I do love animals, I don't even notice it, it's normal to me. Other people remark that though, when I talk to them or tell people something like "the fish are annoyed because it's late, they're tired, they want you to turn the light out"-- which sounds crazy but it's certainly true. Even tropical fish have feelings...

BTW I read your opinion posting: about expressing a viewpoint and not being liked: v well put!!

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 11:41 PM GMT

Name: "anonymous"

Gledwood wrote:

Hi Ivy. At 10pm GMT I was on my other (new) blog (listed). Don't laugh too much if you go there.

As for what you said, I wish that too.

Which blog is that? You have tons listed on the side. 

PS. In my latest entry there is a question for you in it somewhere. 

Thursday, 11 January 2007 - 11:51 PM GMT

Name: "IVY"
Home Page: http://nostoppingplace.blogspot.com

I just stopped by this entry:
Monday, 11 December 2006 THE ROOT OF UNHAPPINESS 
 
I have to read more to get a deeper impression of your writing, but looking at the side I see you probably have a lot more entries than one can tell at a glance. Most people I can pin them down quickly but I cant pin down your style yet. I like to have my entries all scrolled chronologically and so somebody can see everything at once but.. I dont know on slow computers maybe that's a bad idea. I forget that internet readers are speed readers more than book readers.
 
I've just been thinking a bunch about how opiates affect memory and wondering what your thoughts on that were. Read my entry for further ect.  I've been feeling lately that it's harder to recover or recollect memories. I thought that this was a great thing since I;m less hung up on hurtful things that happened but at the same time.. How can it be good? U know what I mean. 
 
Im looking forward to finding out more about you from you writing. I see bits and pieces but Im curious about the whole story.  

Friday, 12 January 2007 - 9:26 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

"IVY" wrote:
I just stopped by this entry:
Monday, 11 December 2006 THE ROOT OF UNHAPPINESS 
I have to read more to get a deeper impression of your writing, but looking at the side I see you probably have a lot more entries than one can tell at a glance. Most people I can pin them down quickly but I cant pin down your style yet. I like to have my entries all scrolled chronologically and so somebody can see everything at once but.. I dont know on slow computers maybe that's a bad idea. I forget that internet readers are speed readers more than book readers.
I've just been thinking a bunch about how opiates affect memory and wondering what your thoughts on that were. Read my entry for further ect.  I've been feeling lately that it's harder to recover or recollect memories. I thought that this was a great thing since I;m less hung up on hurtful things that happened but at the same time.. How can it be good? U know what I mean. 
Im looking forward to finding out more about you from you writing. I see bits and pieces but Im curious about the whole story.  

My blog works like this: all entries are chronologically listed. I've set the page at maximum length ie 20 postings per page. To get to older stuff you go right to the bottom, press older... hey you got that already, okay. Right the 2nd thing: the list of topics to the right at the top of the page. That's why there's a topic given at the top of every posting nearly every day so if you just want to read about drugs select the topic drugs and a page should appear with just those entries in reverse chronological order. (I didn't realize how this worked at first so you get some silly topics I've not renamed them all yet. When I do the blog should be easier to read selectively.)

I'd like to be able to set it to list postings in forward order of time. But I believe this is not possible.

Opiates and memory. I don't think opiates affect memory at all. Or if they do, they only affect it inasmuch as if you're sleepy you don't notice stuff: what you don't notice you don't remember. They're not like hash & grass which do affect memory BADLY. (1 big reason I stopped smoking them.) Benzos and alcohol can cause alcohol blackouts. At one point I lost an entire afternoon and told myself I had to get a grip on my drinking. But I've never had this type of blackouts off of opiates. I do remember being told the spare television was ready for me. What television? I'd been told about it when I was stoned to the rafters (on heroin). This I don't count as a memory blackout because the subject never had my attention to begin with. Or to put it more clearly: a genuine memory loss is something you did remember and now it's gone. Something you never took in to begin with (which is more how opiates goes):—  that's just being semiconscious. I've never heard of opiates causing brain damage. Morphine & diamorphine, according to my old nurses' manual we used as an info source cause "clouding of consciousness".

Are you sure you weren't just forgetting because you were pleasantly detached and not bothered anymore?

Ecstasy also seemed to affect my ability to recover memories. Also I found it hard to pick words out of my inner dictionary for a few days after using it. Which I found dead irritating.

As for my whole story, I ain't told it yet! But I'm doing so. A bit at a time...

Monday, 29 January 2007 - 12:37 AM GMT

Name: "Ivy"
Home Page: http://nostoppingplace.blogspot.com

"Gledwood" wrote:
"IVY" wrote:
I just stopped by this entry:
Monday, 11 December 2006 THE ROOT OF UNHAPPINESSA
I have to read more to get a deeper impression of your writing, but looking at the side I see you probably have a lot more entries than one can tell at a glance. Most people I can pin them down quickly but I cant pin down your style yet. I like to have my entries all scrolled chronologically and so somebody can see everything at once but.. I dont know on slow computers maybe that's a bad idea. I forget that internet readers are speed readers more than book readers.
I've just been thinking a bunch about how opiates affect memory and wondering what your thoughts on that were. Read my entry for further ect.A I've been feeling lately that it's harder to recover or recollect memories. I thought that this was a great thing since I;m less hung up on hurtful things that happened but at the same time.. How can it be good? U know what I mean.A
Im looking forward to finding out more about you from you writing. I see bits and pieces but Im curious about the whole story. A

My blog works like this: all entries are chronologically listed. I've set the page at maximum length ie 20 postings per page. To get to older stuff you go right to the bottom, press older... hey you got that already, okay. Right the 2nd thing: the list of topics to the right at the top of the page. That's why there's a topic given at the top of every posting nearly every day so if you just want to read about drugs select the topic drugs and a page should appear with just those entries in reverse chronological order. (I didn't realize how this worked at first so you get some silly topics I've not renamed them all yet. When I do the blog should be easier to read selectively.)

I'd like to be able to set it to list postings in forward order of time. But I believe this is not possible.

Opiates and memory. I don't think opiates affect memory at all. Or if they do, they only affect it inasmuch as if you're sleepy you don't notice stuff: what you don't notice you don't remember. They're not like hash & grass which do affect memory BADLY. (1 big reason I stopped smoking them.) Benzos and alcohol can cause alcohol blackouts. At one point I lost an entire afternoon and told myself I had to get a grip on my drinking. But I've never had this type of blackouts off of opiates. I do remember being told the spare television was ready for me. What television? I'd been told about it when I was stoned to the rafters (on heroin). This I don't count as a memory blackout because the subject never had my attention to begin with. Or to put it more clearly: a genuine memory loss is something you did remember and now it's gone. Something you never took in to begin with (which is more how opiates goes):a€” A that's just being semiconscious. I've never heard of opiates causing brain damage. Morphine & diamorphine, according to my old nurses' manual we used as an info source cause "clouding of consciousness".

Are you sure you weren't just forgetting because you were pleasantly detached and not bothered anymore?

Ecstasy also seemed to affect my ability to recover memories. Also I found it hard to pick words out of my inner dictionary for a few days after using it. Which I found dead irritating.

As for my whole story, I ain't told it yet! But I'm doing so. A bit at a time...


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