Gledwood's Drug Confessions: A Heroin Addict's Blog
Sunday, 26 November 2006
Getting Clean &
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Topic: Getting Clean

THERE ARE TWO WAYS of tackling heroin addiction.

  • 1 Detoxification which can be
  • A Cold Turkey or
  • B Medication-Assisted Supervised (methadone, dihydrocodeine, buprenorphine, etc is given in reducing doses to minimize withdrawals)
  • 2 Substituation ie give the patient methadone or some other opioid to substitute for the heroin

The problems with detoxing are that if the addict isn't ready (he or she may genuinely believe he/she's ready to come off before detox) the whole experience can be so distressing the addict simply runs crying back to gear with a stronger resolve never to sufffer like that again. Ie -- far from putting the patient off, addiction is only reinforced.

One myth that holds sway over much of the general population seems to be that the best way to treat an addict is to get them off that stuff ASAP! & that "Cold Turkey is over in a week." True the physical part is. But "clucking" is a shock that takes time to get over. Anxiousness, mood swings, depression poor sleep and general exhaustion can persist for weeks.

If you're going to come off in this way -- make sure you have something to do once you are clean. A change is as good as a rest. Get away from as many of the people, places and prompts of your past life as you can manage. This is easier said than done. After some years a typical addict knows hardly anyone who's not on drugs.

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) can be an enormous help. There are meetings all over the world in English and all manner of other languages. If you're serious about doing the 12-step programme you must follow it to the letter (you can't pick and choose aspects you like, eg you must give up booze as well as ALL drugs except lifesaving medications). AND you MUST get a SPONSOR.

As for Section B Assisted Detox, only a reputable clinic can do this properly. (You can even be knocked unconscious!)

Find out in advance the House Rules.

Eg: Are mobile phones allowed? What's the policy on tobacco and caffeine? What medication is given (including sleeping meds) over what type of timetable? How late is bedtime? What is the visitor policy? How long will I be there? What's the food like? If it's state sponsored, do I contribute £/€/$ & how much?

Again, you must have a proper plan for when you come out!

On both counts A & B I'm speaking from experience!

Obviously these pointers are only my view. I am still using. I tried and failed. For someone who gets told I "think too much" I was guilty of awfully bad planning. I had no clear idea of what to do once rehab was accomplished. Literally none at all. Or perhaps "denial" was the issue. Do your own research and take whatever path you choose with your eyes open. Failure can be expensive!

This post 1/2 finished. Will update L8R.- Gled xx


Posted by gledwood at 7:42 PM GMT
Updated: Sunday, 26 November 2006 8:12 PM GMT

Monday, 27 November 2006 - 8:10 AM GMT

Name: "Mousie"
Home Page: http://plumpiemousie.blogspot.com

Hello dear, I'd like to know your name...thanks for visiting my blog and leaving a nice comment...

well, i read your posts...not going to say this and that...and give advices...

i can just say, i went through severe depression , took me a long time to recover, the psychoterapy saved me, but it take time to find a good psy, that's suit you, who doesn't give stupid drugs making things worse, it takes time to find him or her and after to sort out problems...but i'm still alive...so...

why did you start taking drugs? could anything be done in that direction...

do you have friends...family...though i know we are always alone...

what can i say ...what can i do...just leave the Plumpiemousie door wide open as usual, feel free to visit whenever you like...to say whatever you like...you've got my mail...

where do you live and how old are you?

see you

take care

Mousie

Monday, 27 November 2006 - 11:42 AM GMT

Name: "Ruth"
Home Page: http://ruth-boofie.blogspot.com/

Hi Gledwood

Thanks for dropping by my blog. I am very impressed by your blog. Not many people in your situation would be brave or open enough to lay their self bare for all the world to see. I have found with my own blog that writing things down is a help to me. When I look back at past posts it reminds me on the BAD days that there have been GOOD ones! I do so hope that blogging will be of help to you; and I know it will be of benefit to not only those in a similar situation but to those of us to whom the subject is a mystery. One day we may have a member of our family in the same situation and it will be good to have a knowledgeable source to turn to. I wish you well on your quest and will drop by when I can to see how things are going with you. I was pleased to see Mousie had dropped by. She really seems a wonderful character.

In answer to your question about Mick's patch. He was having a lot of trouble with mucus build up in his throat and was choking a lot. Finally after 6 months the doc suggested trying Hyoscine patches. They help dry up excess fluids (used I think for travel sickness). They have helped soooo much and I think the reason Mick manages a few words now is because maybe? they are drying a little of the fluid around the brain tumor.

By the way, the only reason I have not left my email address is because if I am not busy with Mick and the home I am usually having a blog and find that I take ages to get around to answering emails and wouldnt want you to think I'd ignored you if you did email. 

Take care

Til next time

Ruth 

Tuesday, 28 November 2006 - 11:32 PM GMT

Name: gledwood
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com

"Mousie" wrote:

Hello dear, I'd like to know your name...thanks for visiting my blog and leaving a nice comment...

well, i read your posts...not going to say this and that...and give advices...

i can just say, i went through severe depression , took me a long time to recover, the psychoterapy saved me, but it take time to find a good psy, that's suit you, who doesn't give stupid drugs making things worse, it takes time to find him or her and after to sort out problems...but i'm still alive...so...

why did you start taking drugs? could anything be done in that direction...

do you have friends...family...though i know we are always alone...

what can i say ...what can i do...just leave the Plumpiemousie door wide open as usual, feel free to visit whenever you like...to say whatever you like...you've got my mail...

where do you live and how old are you?

see you

take care

Mousie

Hi Mousie thanks for your letter. I have tried over and over to analyse how all this started. It started in the very beginning with a girl offering me a cannabis spliff and my saying yes. A week later she invited me to a party where everyone was taking ecstasy. I got a very rapid introduction to all this sort of thing. I was a lost soul when I was younger and deeply unhappy in many ways. I don't say this as an excuse because I know many unhappy people don't take drugs. The only difference with me was I was willing (or foolish) enough to experiment. I always had a laissez-faire attitude to mindbending substances and was called a "junkie" (in jest) long before I actually was one. In answer to your questions I live in London and am in my mid-30s... I wish in five years time if I'm still keeping a blog it could be about someone who "used to be...". You're in France aren't you? Are you French? Your English is amazing. I wish I had French that good...

Tuesday, 28 November 2006 - 11:40 PM GMT

Name: gledwood
Home Page: http://gledwood.tripod.com

"Ruth" wrote:

Hi Gledwood

Thanks for dropping by my blog. I am very impressed by your blog. Not many people in your situation would be brave or open enough to lay their self bare for all the world to see. I have found with my own blog that writing things down is a help to me. When I look back at past posts it reminds me on the BAD days that there have been GOOD ones! I do so hope that blogging will be of help to you; and I know it will be of benefit to not only those in a similar situation but to those of us to whom the subject is a mystery. One day we may have a member of our family in the same situation and it will be good to have a knowledgeable source to turn to. I wish you well on your quest and will drop by when I can to see how things are going with you. I was pleased to see Mousie had dropped by. She really seems a wonderful character.

In answer to your question about Mick's patch. He was having a lot of trouble with mucus build up in his throat and was choking a lot. Finally after 6 months the doc suggested trying Hyoscine patches. They help dry up excess fluids (used I think for travel sickness). They have helped soooo much and I think the reason Mick manages a few words now is because maybe? they are drying a little of the fluid around the brain tumor.

By the way, the only reason I have not left my email address is because if I am not busy with Mick and the home I am usually having a blog and find that I take ages to get around to answering emails and wouldnt want you to think I'd ignored you if you did email. 

Take care

Til next time

Ruth 

Thanks for replying to me. I never really saw myself as brave, I suppose I thought I'd be totally insincere posing my views on life the universe and everything and everything else I do yet leave out the very first thing you would notice about me if you met me. Most people guess there's something wrong with me. People who haven't known me that well have wondered why I can never quite get it together. Well I could prattle away all manner of reasons and excuses.

I hope things are going well with you. I am glad Mick's patch is working for him. Please send him my regards. All the best,

G

Thursday, 28 December 2006 - 1:51 PM GMT

Name: "Parent"

My daughter is a user she just got out of 60 days in jail. She says she wants wants to stay clean, but thinks going to NA meetings would just allow her to make more user friends. Does that happen alot? Can she do this alone?

Thanks for having this site I'm sure you've helped alot of people 

  

Friday, 29 December 2006 - 8:41 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: https://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

Is she really scared of this or just making excuses? 

I've been to quite a few NA meetings... The first time I went to one I was under the impression everyone else there except for me and one crusty alcohol-smelling man who said he'd just started methadone were totally sorted. One guy tried to "take me under his wing"... he was extremely enthusiastic to the point where I began to suspect there was something wrong. Full of slogans & parrotting phrases like GOD = group of druggies/give up or die... Not many weeks later this man relapsed badly and I learnt a lesson. Be discerning who you hang out with even in NA.

NA talk a lot about a "higher power". There is certainly a power in the group and the group is absolutely 100% about getting clean, no question. You can talk about anything you like when you "share" but they don't particularly like folks who go on and on in too much detail about using. The vibe there is a clean vibe.

Only once did this woman I had been talking to for a few weeks edge the conversation round to drugs... what was it like now (she'd been on methadone for a year or more) where did I get it from... was it near? Just when I thought she was going to ask if we could score together she U-turned & changed the subject. That is the one and ONLY time anyone's ever strayed on to that territory.

To be honest, for all the reasons above, I'd say NA is one of the safest places you can be. It's also one place where you can meet loads of exusers some of whom might have accomplished 10 years clean who will talk openly and honestly about having a habit... still-using addicts aren't always the most reliable & honest people... (as we know).

One bit of v good advice I was given in NA: don't give up on it if you go to a boring meeting. Some meetings are better than others. "Keep coming back" is the motto, so don't judge the whole fellowship on one bad impression.

Obviously I'm still using so there's not much I can say about "recovery" ... BUT I can bear witness to the fact that NA works for those who do the programme, I know because I've seen for myself the positive changes in certain other people. 

Friday, 29 December 2006 - 8:53 PM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: http://gledwod.tripod.com/blog

SORRY I WAS AWFULLY RUDE I FORGOT TO SAY I WISH YOUR DAUGHTER ALL THE VERY BEST OF LUCK WITH STAYING CLEAN.

GLEDWOOD

Wednesday, 17 January 2007 - 11:11 AM GMT

Name: "IVY"
Home Page: http://nostoppingplace.blogspot.com

I came so close- I had no idea how close I was to quitting. My roomate was going off about how NA is a dumb cult and how stupid its doctrines were and I would say "I dont want to hear it anymore" ( I was all excited about the NA thing and happy about the meetings keeping me clean for a tiny while) and he would force me to listen to the parts of their texts that he thought were dumb as he recited them over and over.. then he said when I moved in NO DRUGS. it wouldnt matter; he is so dense I could smoke crack in here without him noticing. Anyway it's realy easy to ALMOST quit and then plunge right back... agggggh! It's like that scene in "Hard Candy" Luke davies where they throw everything into the garbage can.. then five days later they are digging in the garbage can looking for their old syringes and stuff. 

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