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Wednesday, 3 January 2007
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Topic: Daily Doings

Wednesday 3rd January 2007

I DO FIND IT AMUSING when I type these postings out on Word and the program presumes to (a) understand what I’m trying to say better than I can say so myself or (b) (most annoying of all) corrects my grammar. It even dove (or should that be “dived”, I prefer “dove”, I think it’s American English but still, I prefer it. Yeah, it dove in and informed me that my Revised Standard Version Bible quotation from Isaiah for the new year was ungrammatical. Honestly!

   Right so I’m meant to tell the nitty-gritty of my sad life. Sainsbury’s. No beef sausages. Exceedingly annoying. (I’m no swine-o-phile.) I’m getting loads of green underlining here. Bought “Healthy Options” wholegrain fresh and soft and bendy tagliatelle. Not your junkie Value baked beans and shoplifted bacon fayre, I know, but I’ve made more effort to take care of myself of late.

   Last night I conked out (addicts don’t just sleep, they conk out fully clothed for the night and call that sleeping). Yeah so I conked out with hammy out. In my hands he’s learnt to dive up my sleeves where he mouses around for up to twenty minutes before settling down to sleep. Yes, up my sleeve. And it being night, I fell into deep unconsciousness with said rodent nestling in the crook of my arm. (Hamsters are nocturnal, but this one just sleeps morning, noon and night; I’ve never had a pet like him.)

   When I awoke thinking “aaagh! He’s pinged out!” he hadn’t. He was just clinging (no doubt still unconscious) to the inside of my clothes. As I said, he is a very odd hamster. Chinese hamster if you want to be precise. He makes my sleeves his own domain then runs away from my hands when I try and get him out. Usually for some practical reason, like I’m popping down the shop. Sometimes I just think, well whatever and take him with me. He doesn’t mind.

   Now I’m trying to think of something more exciting to tell you. One of these days I shall get round to telling about my home detox. At my parents’ house. Unannounced. That was some chaos and a half!

   Meanwhile I’m signing off for now. Take care, folks.

Gleds

xx


Posted by gledwood at 9:20 PM GMT

Thursday, 4 January 2007 - 12:18 AM GMT

Name: "soren faust"
Home Page: http://soren-faust.livejournal.com/

Hey Glens,

Thanks for commenting on my journal (livejournal) post, i.e. "Tunnel Walking." I like your comment on the whole "pinhole" at the end of the tunnel insight. Anyway, I plan on reading some of your stuff--as it stands, I've been quite busy and have fell behind on reading blogs. Also, I noticed that Micah from Junkylife gave you a "nod." Junkylife's a good site with good people on it, except for me. To let you know--I'm "ssaturnine" on JL. The reason I've not been posting frequently over there is because, for intents and purposes, I don't fit the Junky thing anymore, so why bore people with my stories of what can be called the remnants of a drug past. I still have "problems" but they're mainly what I call vanilla drug problems, the ones that never, ever go away.

 Hope your new year goes sweetly, again thanks for looking me up.

soren faust

Thursday, 4 January 2007 - 1:17 AM GMT

Name: "Gledwood"
Home Page: https://gledwood.tripod.com/blog

Thanks for posting your comment.

I omitted to tell you that when I went tunnel walking I did so with my brother, my Mum and my Dad! (Sneaking behind barbed-wire fences into the Stygian dark... mile-long rat infested derelict tunnels! Not the kinda thing you're MEANT to do with your parents... surely...?... know what I mean??!

Funny you should have posted about the Tunnel Walk. I've always counted myself lucky for having had that tunnel experience. I'm not sure most people have, you know, really experienced what that saying "light at the end of the tunnel" really means...

Another time we were on a canal narrow boat (again with Mum & this time step-father, on holiday) we went through incredibly long canal-tunnel. This one was really ultra-low to the boat and ribbed or ridged the entire length along the top to the horses that usually pulled the narrow boats could be walked along the top by a child and the men would lie on their backs "peddling" upside down a boat carrying possibly many tonnes of coal/ore/manufactured items (Britain had an extensive canal network before the railways were built and enormous quantities of goods were shipped across the system that joined all the major rivers of the land...) That time in particular I remember the pinpoint of light quite clearly, how tiny and small and slow it stayed. Yeah, cliché it may be, but it definitely means something, that phrase about it at the end of the tunnel...

I don't get what you mean by "Vanilla" drug prob? Surely a problem is a problem? You don't mean opiates, I take it? Are you trying to say you have the odd drink too many and need Valium to chill out? In that case you can join the club of about 100,000,000 other people in THAT particular boat!

Okay, re New Year have a great one. All the best, Gleds

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